Proper Update

Well it's almost 4 in the morning and the energy drinks are in full swing now that the eyebleeding ride home is over with. It took us every bit of three hours to get home with my father driving because his paranoid pothead self feels like the cops are just out to get him. So I stayed up too late last night attempting to write more of my utter nonsense since I had no internet before just giving up and going to bed. I woke up at 11 today and then dicked off way too long until it was time to get out of here hence the rushed blog entry. We waited to eat so I could take my father to that magnificent Mongolian Grill on the way there so he could bitch and moan the entire time. The place is pretty self explanatory and he fumbled around like a retard for the sake of causing a scene and I had to explain it step by step to him. Of course he loved the food and only admitted it in the car afterward. We got to the show and thankfully none of the bands were in the accommodating mood when we got there which saved me a lot of embarrassment. The show was great and all 5 bands rocked even Born of Osiris who does nothing for me put on a good enough show for me not to be repulsed. I finally broke down and saw Cannibal Corpse and really enjoyed them as well. My father talked about his pals in Goatwhore and Sevendust all night long like he does at every other show to the point of me walking away but some things will never change. We then rode home and my father went on to put words in my friend Donna's mouth about how I don't understand that she is his friend as well as my friend etc. He also went on to claim that she was looking for 'a more mature man' and he was uncomfortable about the seductive looks and stuff she gave him and statements she made. I guess he can't tell repulsed apart from lust. I have a God awful migraine now and I'm not sure why. I feel like a dog on the end of its leash that really should be going somewhere but isn't allowed to. I've heard a lot lately from people that I'm more or less a bad person and I need to just make a total overhaul I guess in my life, my lifestyle and the company that I keep. Apparently I'm failing at all of it. I've gotten to the point where I don't even know what I'm doing wrong anymore and I might as well be the last choice for when people have nothing better to do. I usually am on some kind of concert high for a day after a good show, however tonight I feel as if I've been kicked in the balls and left in the middle of a sidewalk in New York City to fend for myself. I've never had the people closest to me turn such an about face in my life. Even my family is flaking out on me. Fuck it all.