Would Not Titling These Make Me Rebellious?

Alright, another Thursday down the toilet. I wouldn't remember what day it was if it weren't for concerts and knowing the lottery drawings are Wednesday and Saturday. I'm really ashamed of myself because I haven't been out of work more than a couple of days since I was 18 and here I am going on 2 and a half months. I got my unemployment check today which at least paid the bills but God fucking damn I'm going out of my mind. It's kind of fucked up because I get $300 a week on unemployment and that's the equivalent of a $9 an hour job after taxes, which makes it absolutely pointless to get a low paying job for the sake of having a job. I was at $17 and feel like I need to do better than that to pay my bills and do what I want anyhow. I'm definitely not finding shit either. Of course I have a hard time looking my piece of shit father in the face when I go another day like today without a job because it's kind of like I'm handing him the ammunition to fire at me by showing him how I accomplished nothing. I kind of sleep until lunchtime, play video games and sit on the internet until dinner time and then I clean up the mess that he inevitably made the night before at around 8, just in time for him to get home and fuck it up again. I would like to ultimately move to Orlando or Atlanta although the Orlando one seems more feasible right now. I just wonder if I will encounter the same or worse problems daily. I'm not worried about myself going to work or being responsible everyday if I have a house to keep up. There are these problems with this generation that could make it ultimately suck though. I'm not going to go out to eat every meal when I live on my own, I'm not going to live in a shithole, I'm not living in party central, I'm not letting people sell or do drugs in my house, and I'm not supporting people who don't really want to get a job. So these things will probably be the death of me in finding suitable people to live with. Too many people think that getting high all day capped off with a midnight run to Taco Bell is the life of champions. By no means am I even close to perfect but I rather enjoy keeping to myself and the peace and quiet that comes with having no drama in my life and I need the same.